Needless to say the past couple of days i’ve not been productive at all and a blubbering mess.
I thought I would write an Ode to my beautiful baby cockatiel named Trixie.
Having lost both my parents six months apart when I was 24, the hardest thing about losing someone because they have passed or just leave is when you don’t get to say goodbye.
You sit there and think if I’d have known I would have done this or said this…..
I wasn’t home on Monday when she flew away. She was hanging out with my husband and totally unlike her she flew out the small space to do so at the backdoor.
Unfortunately she didn’t fly to any nearby trees so that we could get her, she just flew as far as my husband could see.
No-one had ever seen me cry like that at home before. I just sat on our back balcony in the pitch black and just sobbed.
My little daughter came out yelling “trixie, mummy’s home, you can come home now” god bless her.
Sometimes you dont really appreciate how much something means to you until they’re gone.
My husband got her for me as a christmas present, i grew up with birds, budgies, as I lived in a unit as a child.
I didn’t get to say goodbye Trixie so I’m going to write a message here with tears streaming down my face hoping that somehow you feel it — though it’s winter here now and chances are she won’t make it on her own in the wild (after reading extensively on the internet).
To my beautiful bird Trixie.
In the last few months since you came to our home you have made me so happy and actually made me feel really loved.
I loved the way when i had a cup of tea on my desk you would sit there and eat the tea bag.
I loved the way how when I was using the mouse you would bend over so that your head could touch my fingers and have a cuddle.
I loved the way how you used to sit on my shoulder and then nuzzle up to my cheek and have a cuddle.
I loved the way when I’d walk in the door you’d hear my voice and just come fly on top of my head.
I loved the way you used to love eating popcorn with me watching tv.
My office isn’t the same without you. Theres a big space where your cage used to be, which is now out the back just in case you should find your way home.
I admire your adventurous spirit and I really really love you and I just hope that you’re okay.
Please know how much I love you and how happy you made me my feathered friend and I won’t ever forget you…….
Love Mum x